Evasion....

"Each thing I do I rush through so I can do/ something else" - Stephen Dobyns

If I had a single moment to myself each day, 

That day would be filled with pain again- 

For in that moment I would unquestionably find 

That what I'd become is not how I'd begun. 

If I had a single chance to take, 

That instance would be filled with doubt again- 

For in that chance I would not rely, 

This what I wanted is not what I need. 

If I had a single fibre of courage bestowed, 

That strength would slowly waste away 

And to that strength I would not hold 

For tears taste better to a hopeless soul. 

If I had a single hand to hold- 

That gesture would be frowned upon, 

For in that hand is a touch of kindness- 

That guilt would be my ultimate withdrawal. 

If I was asked to make a single wish, 

That dream I'd seen open eyes would revive, 

And in that dream I would want to reside- 

For what I rush through is just life. 

So don't give me a moment, a chance or courage 

Don't lend me a hand or ask for my wish 

I don't want to cherish what I can't nourish

 I just want to rush through this life.